Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Tuesday, 17 February 2015

6. Try to exercise a disinterested acceptance at all times with respect to everything you experience.

At first I was skeptical about meditation but then I got to step 6 and I realised that it was a perfect fit for me.

Other than my failed attempts at detacchment and disinterest in worldy urges and desires and aversions, I don't have much to report on.

I dreamt earlier about a broken window in my room. I'm still having dreams where I'm stuck halfway between living with parents (at childhood home instead of last home) versus having my own place, and thinking everytime something goes wrong there "Well why don't I just move out permenantly to my own place", and it's like in these dreams that I own my own place but I never go there, or I only go there weekends, or some weird twisted logic.

Weight wise I've lost an entire kilo in the last 4 months. Then again considering I'm at 57kg I guess it's okay? Eating healthy is bloody expensive though, I'll be happy if I manage to save $50 this month by overanalysing 14 months of grocery bills line by line.

Ms. Four Boyfriends' infatuation with current bf #7 or whatever (I lost count) combined with her obnoxious Colleague's whining about being sleep deprived and horny is really ruining my mood and ruing my attempts at finding my inner peace and center of calmness and stuff.

So yeah. Inner peace. Namasté.